Today is my second time celebrating Mother's Day. The first time around, I honestly didn't know what to expect. It's kinda odd the first year when you have a young baby that can't really reach out, give you a hug and say 'I WUV WUU' (which is what Lily told me today *LOVE HEART EYES*). This year it's different - Lily painted a beautiful canvas drawing for me and drew all over the wrapping paper, she came and gave a big cuddle after I had a nice little sleep in. It was the best! All of this got me thinking, what does being a Mum/Mom/Mama/Ima mean to me?
Motherhood is… life-changing. One thing is certain, your life will never be the same. And I don't say 'life-changing' in the rainbows, butterflies and everything's perfect way. I mean it in the sense that for better or worse, things will not be the same as before. I'm never going to be able to travel overseas at a moments notice, or be hungover in bed all day. I can't just leave the house to go get a massage, or spontaneously decide to go on a date with my husband. But that's ok. For all the things I can't do, there are another million things that make up for it. Bringing up a little human and seeing them grow from moment to moment is so rewarding. I'm definitely not the same person I was before I had Lily, but hands down it's the best thing that's ever happened to me.
Highs & lows. The highs are the joy and happiness she brings me when she starts doing something new or saying a new word. Everyday her personality shows itself a little more and I love seeing her progress into the independent, strong but sensitive soul she is. The lows are the moments when she's sick or not having the best of days. When you're pushed to your tether but you do some deep breaths and wait for your husband to get home so you can have a bath and a big glass of red wine.
That moment I realise it's the best job in the world.. usually late at night when she's peacefully sleeping, all snuggled up. And I'll scroll through photos on my phone and smile at all the cute things she did that day. It's then I realise that I'm the lucky one.
Switching off from mama-mode. To be honest, having a career and a blog is one of my resets from mum-mode. I love spending our mornings together, getting her dressed and dropping her off at daycare. But I'm also happy knowing she's going to have the best time with her friends and that I can go work on something I love. Then when the day comes to an end, I switch off from work-mode with no emails or texts, and it becomes all about her. We read books, we cook dinner and eat as a family. And then I'm happy to do it all over again the next day.